I’ve been wearing around this little blue dot for the past 2 weeks, as you can probably tell by the dingy circle surrounding its protective cover.
This is the spot where my stoma will go. We picked it out when I had my last doctor’s appointment to set the date. One of the ostomy nurses walked me through what I’ll be dealing with after the surgery and helped me figure out the best spot to place it. Here it will be above my pants line and also be out of way when I sit down.
It’s been an interesting reminder over the past couple weeks as I’ve been preparing for surgery. Now that we’re only a day away, I’m feeling anxious. It’s a combination of being anxious for it to be done and to start moving towards recovery and also anxious just in advance of the surgery. I’m not worried about it, per se, just a little nervous.
Although, I do I think I had a slight nervous breakdown last night as I was dealing with a combination of pain in both of my feet, exhaustion and just feeling the pressure of everything about to happen. But hubby took care of me and got me some blueberry pie and I started feeling better.
Today, I’m doing my best not to think too much about tomorrow, so as to not stress myself out any more. And it’s not because I’m having any second thoughts about it. I still know we’re making the right decision.
But 24 hours from now, my little blue dot will be gone and there will be a real permanent stoma in its place. It scares me a little to think about that, but then when I think about finally feeling better, it doesn’t seem so scary.